Sunday, December 16, 2018

Time to Dream Again

“We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we’re curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.”
– Walt Disney
Around 5 years ago this house (top)was empty and open for sale /rental. About the same time, I started a small a music lesson studio in a townhouse(bottom)
At the back of my mind, I’ve always thought it would be nice for me to have my studio in a bigger house and that house in particular. The day came when it was time for a bigger place and a more convenient space for the parents to drop the kids.

Top : the new double storey studio
Bottom : The first baby studio

All I had and have right to this minute is prepared by God and sometimes I felt I could be one of the laziest kind of businesswoman yet God never gave up on me. God has taught me dependency and responsibility.  I did my best not to overwork and in everything give thanks. I committed the business to God on a daily basis and pray for Him to fill in the void of my inadequacies.
God planted the desire for me to move and though I was afraid of what the future holds, He kept making the visions clearer. Even as I spoke to my mentor for the first time, there was peace.
I really thank God how it was all arranged and how I got to meet with the owner of the house. And for that, the rental was negotiated to a price both parties could agree to. Besides that, I thank God for my godfamily and some of the teachers who took the trouble in helping me shift. In fact, God sends the right people to my life to uplift me, to encourage me and to advise me. I'm also thankful for a prayerful mentor and though our paths have crossed before, it was only recently that we were connected. And truly, a divine connection.

I am so thankful for the teachers who are working with me currently and also those who did in the past. They fill the void of the studio and made it home.    ☺️
And not forgetting parents who entrusted us with their children and all the other older students, I’m truly grateful.

In all that we do, we need to submit to God's guidance. It is the only way to make gentle mistakes and fail safely, and on the other hand, succeed effortlessly, have divine connections.
“Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them!” Psalm 139:16-17

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

Current 4 Women - FullSail Ministry in Penang

When God prompts strongly in your heart to go somewhere, it is the best thing to obey, I heeded the prompting this time and I was truly blessed by this event Current for Women organized by Full Sail Ministries.

These are passionate men and women of God who ministers through arts and worship as well as the sharing of the Word of God. It was held in Fettes Park Baptist Church, a place where I first came to know the Living God in the youth ministry many years ago.

The theme of this event was Living Hope: Finding Life in the Waiting.

This is Jill Ludlow, the speaker throughout the event and her heart of passion for God are felt throughout the preaching of the Word. The tenderness of her message about Rooting, Rising and Thriving truly speaks volume about her experiences with the Living Hope Himself.  I thank God for speaking through her while praying for me during communion. Dreams that were shelved, God brought it to the surface of my heart and He sweetens it with mysteries. Mysteries that I am looking forward to uncovering and seeking out the out-of-box adventures that He has promised me. 

This beautiful artwork was painted by Heidi only during worship sessions in the span of two days. 

Here are some glimpses of the stations that were set up by the Full Sail organizers. They created such a cozy and peaceful environment for us to reflect upon our walk with God in various ways. It is a time of personal evaluation and surrendering unto God in my humble opinion as it allows me to dig deeper into certain areas of my life. It is so vital to be grounded in God's word while living in the waiting.

Our buffet breakfast prepared by Let’s Meat. Their cafe is located at Permai 32, Tanjung Bungah.

My current playlist in my ride each day:- Finding You by Erin & Trevor Ludlow

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Tuesday, January 23, 2018

My Mother Is In Heaven

I never knew that day would come that I would have to write a eulogy for someone so soon. Writing for my mother was hard as there are so many things I would love to include in and during the process, coming to terms with the fact that she's gone made it difficult for tears not to be shed. God has been a comfort, answering my prayer for me to dream that my mother is happy in her new home. It was a quirky kind of dream but I saw her cheeky smile and that kept my heart at peace. He has shown His faithfulness throughout this ordeal and I'm grateful.
An edited and lengthier version of the eulogy:
Our dearest mummy was truly a unique lady. And if you had the opportunity of spending some time with her, you might understand what we mean.
She loves the company of family and friends, loves having chit chats, phone talks with good friends and recently getting to know Uber/grab drivers, she never stop making new friends especially the market sellers, kopitiam servers and even other fellow marketers like her, therefore she always has lots of stories to share with us.
And so, some friends we only got to know through the stories she shared with us.
Many who knew mummy would be able to tell about her selflessness and generosity. Sometimes, if you would comment on her lovely accessories “Aunty, sui lo, lu eh earring!”, mummy would likely take it off and happily give it to you.
To friends, mummy cared for what her friends were going through.
As a mother, oftentimes, she got to know a lot of our friends, and through the years some even got used to calling mummy and daddy like their very own.....
Her granddaughters will miss squeezing and cuddling with her. Even playing with Mama using Snapchat and whatnot. Mama will play along and just make them laugh at her cuteness.
On the morning before mummy had to be rushed to the hospital, she had already gone to the market to buy “ho liaw “ food for us and her two granddaughters. She loves to make people around her happy.
Stories of our mother will never end, we will keep those memories in our hearts.
Although it was hard for us to let mummy go, we know she’s in a better place where she can dance with no pain and suffering. *her cha-cha, waltz n jive
Thanks to everyone who was there for us, for all the prayers, support, and generosity, your presence means a lot to us. In all the ways that you have shown us love from near or far, we deeply appreciate it.
God bless you.
Mummy went home to be with the Lord on
31st December 2017.

//My New Year's Eve, a day to remember//

Saturday, March 18, 2017

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

 I was in my car on the way from home and for this trip, I decided to switch off the mobile network and just listen to music. Halfway through these questions came and I asked How do I know You're with me like You said in Your Word that You are, I need more than just believing in Your Word because, in times like this, I need to experience You.

In a few minutes, I switched off the CD player and I started to sing this song Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus, an old hymn that I rarely sing and listen to. I sang repetitively till I reach home and I was very tired to even sing actually but I managed to do that the whole way through. Amazing that I had the strength as I was kind of pressed down my chest.

Two days later while I was in church the worship leader led this song and then God spoke that all we need to do is to look at Jesus and your problems will become shadows in the light of Jesus.  He is greater and the One who is in us is greater than the one who is in the world - 1 John 4:4.

We need to keep experiencing God and continue to study His Word to remain confident in Who we believe in and when times of turmoil and trouble comes, we can tell the mountains the God that we serve is by our side and we have nothing to fear.

May you be encouraged by this song and whatever circumstances you're going through right now, look to Jesus Your help, Your redeemer, and Friend. He will answer.

Monday, February 27, 2017

Serendipity by God

Believe in the serendipity of God's divine plan. That God has a hand in everything. A thousand years is like one day to God, we can't keep up with his time but we can flow in the timeline He has set for us. It is not an easy thing to do if the door before us seems uninviting. Not knowing what is behind the door cripples one's joy especially when it is a matter of life and death or a decision that could lead to many changes in life.  But what if a broken car brake brings to a right stop and there you meet the love of your life. What if a burnt hand will lead to an opportunity to become the best chef in the world with Michelin stars attached to the name.

I believe that God is a very interesting God and we just have to trust and hop onto His plan for eternity. God saved us and I just know He will take care of us forever. The eyes need to have the right focus and the lens needs to come from the right Maker.

 Rejections and failures are just temporary setbacks and sometimes it was there for a reason but if we choose to not look to God during those times, we may have missed the serendipitous moment that was already prepared for us.

 God is always there whether we feel Him for that moment or not. The practice of knowing His presence is so crucial in life. The Holy Spirit resides in us, guides us in all things and He teaches the deep truths about God and His ways.

This beautiful psalm in Psalm 104 speaks of how big Our God is, the earth in the palm of His hands.

And I would like to end with the last part of the Psalm
33 I will sing to the Lord as long as I live.
    I will praise my God to my last breath!
34 May all my thoughts be pleasing to him,
    for I rejoice in the Lord.
35 Let all sinners vanish from the face of the earth;
    let the wicked disappear forever.
Let all that I am praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord!

Friday, September 30, 2016

Faith Impacting Message

Hebrews 11:1   What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see.

When Ps. Rachel asked us to pray and ask God for breakthroughs etc. I told God I have too many to ask for and don't know which to ask first. I told Him I leave every one of it all to Him,He knows me better than I know me anyway. 

Two days later, I came across an email subscription n it says free e-book with the title Things Not Seen. I clicked and download without giving it a single thought. And I began to read the chapters,it's stories were full of Bible men and women who had gone through faith testing trials as well as their faith-journeying through problems to discover more about themselves.

I felt so encouraged and I believe God is answering my prayers through the ebook. The many breakthroughs that I am believing God for and issues that awaits God's interventions seems lighter as my mind began to shift, a shift to a better right believing, to trust God's ways and time. The more I read, mentally I became clearer. There was a shift in my mind and I believe that's what God is asking me to have before I experience the specific miracles from Him.

It's not a miracle testimony per se, but am just sharing the start of it,and how God is faithful to show signs just to encourage my faith journey. Sometimes along the way,we get negative influences and remarks that makes us feel difficult to stay on course of believing in a miracle.

Waiting for miracles are never easy and sometimes can be pushed aside. It was just funny to me that how I complained that I have so many that I want Him to do for me,n then the many stories I now read has so many faith impacting lessons to hold on to. God's sense of humour and His witty reply does tickled me. Let me share with you the link to this book

Things Not Seen by Jon Bloom

Days later after reading it, my friend asked me to help out with projector for a meeting. Prophet Ps. Abhishek was preaching about faith and later when he prayed for me at the end of the message, I received further confirmation on what He was speaking to me before and many other things. Thanks to my friend who encouraged the prayer although I was not so keen.

Thank God for His Word.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

September Prayer

Lord, let Your desires be my desires,
That I will be excited to fulfill those desires,
Let my feet walk in the path you have set for me,
Never let me be at ease with the things that is not from you,
So that I can always make the right call to obey,
Teach me to forgive myself for the things that I should have done,
That there is always Your grace to bring me through,
To allow you to be the strength of my heart,
To learn to do things better, to accept what I'm not able to change,
And allow You to show me Your heart's intent for my life,
I give you all of me, may I be humble to Your word.
May my ears be in tuned to hear Your voice.
Your will be done.
In Jesus Name Amen!